목요일, 6월 02, 2005
Poor Shanni...
Hiaks. Poor poor shanni. Why does she have to die?? N letting her die when she is so happy...sigh.Leaving this world at the peak of ur happiness--Is that considered good or bad?To me, its real bad. Cos i dun think i will be able to give it up. How can i. when your happiest moments are jus right in front of u. N all u can do is to give it all up n bid a sad farewell to something u have been lookin so much forward to it. But looking at her, i really think gettin married is the happiest thing that can happen to u in ur entire life. Well of cos provided that u are getting married to the person u love most. Without that person, i guess marriage would just lose its meaning. I admit, im a hopeless romantic at heart but somehow i jus doubt true love. Does it really exist in this world? I dunno, n i dun have the faintest idea of how i can know. So in e end, im just a hopeless romantic cynic. Someone who believes in true love in drama yet doubts it in real life. What an irony. But i do envy couples who do display true love in real life. Of cos, if they do exist. Im too cynical already. Nah, maybe the correct person just hasnt come along yet. (self consolation) Anyway at the present moment, im jus content with the pple around me. They are enough i guess. At least for now.
Hmm, in the end, im still stuck with my job. They asked me to work part time instead n i jus din have the heart to refuse. I mean, they are a big company, n the fact that they din hire another person...u noe. So just stay on for as long as i can manage lor. Anyway, they are trying out the part time arrangement for 2 weeks so who noes, maybe at the end of it i might still get the sack. Well, it all depends on fate. Although i cun sae i have alot of 'feelings' for the company, i think i do have some affinity with it. Working there twice, at different branches n different positions. The miracle of it. Lol. But working there really enriches my experience by alot. (I'm being sarcastic, mind u)The first time i folded so many letters into envelopes i feel like im folding incense paper n training my biceps at the same time. The first time i wasted so much A4 white papers (n i really mean aLOT--they are almost like 10cm high so imagine urself) cos i was tryin to print out 416 letters n i dunno why my first attempt came out a disaster. Ok i must clarify in case pple think im such an idiot that i cun even print out letters. I have to do mail merge from Excel file to form my letters from Word the stupid thing just refuses to work. In addition, this is my first time doin mail merge! what on earth is that u tell me. N the stupid comp i have is like a pentium 2 lor. Slow sia. Not i wan to complain.
On a happier note, i finally got back my results! heh. My first A and A+ in the same sem. Ok fine i know my previous results were bad enuf cos the highest i got was like an A- only so jus let me gloat awhile over my results can. Sorry jie n angie, jus pretend u all din read this paragraph lah. Thankew.
Yeah i finally found a place i can learn my knitting. So happy n excited. Been trying to learn for ages but self learning really is a bad thing cos i hardly get any motivation at all. So this time im full of confidence i will be able to do it. N i saw something else that i wanna learn too..Heh embroidery! Super cool leh i mean when i saw the shop owner doing it. She was sewing this snow white portrait. There seem to be an endless amount of things i wanna learn in this hols that i feel like im being overloaded. But kai xin jiu hao le. =)
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